satinmemoirs

Mid life crisis

You can definitely say that I am having one of those

Full Set, Experimental Dreams, Study of Self, June 2023

From when I shot part 2 from this series. This is my recent fabuloso soak. I am happy with the results, I did something different this time and I think I like it both ways i make it. So happy to share this with you finally! My hibiscus is doing so...

Full set, And My Body, Study of Self, June 2023 on Black Orchid

Souped, shot, developed, and scanned by me ✨ First few images with DSLR scanning. It has been fun experimenting with every single aspect of DSLR shooting. I really love how the roll came out, it isn’t the best roll to test first since it was d...

Early access: From Study of Self, And My Body series June 2023

My light sources came yesterday! I played around with it yesterday a bunch and scanned my first roll. I decided to do the black orchid double expo roll from this series. It will take some getting used to DSLR scanning but I am into it. This roll w...

black orchid

sneak peak. some very rigged iPhone pics of my souped double exposure negative lol. I am excited to scan this, it’s the EDU roll of the black orchid batch I did last. I really love the contrast. It’s been a hectic but good week. I am about to ...

Full set - Study of Self, June 2023, P2

Finished the second part of my series this morning. I drove for a little while, always thinking about a ton of things at once when I do that. I wasn't sure what the weekend would bring, because I am an uber driver, even though I come into contact ...

Full Set, Morning Light, June 2023, Part I

From yesterday morning in my room. Since then I've wanted to extend this shoot by another layer, so part II coming soon :) I used 4 of my favorite cameras, creating a montage from this project as well. I have been working on my photography stuff m...

bts from this am

Study of self, June 2023, sharing iPhone pics from just a bit ago in my room this morning. Discovering new pockets of light in here ❤️ I have many goals I want to accomplish hopefully this month. Hoping I can be completely set up for film scan...

Full Set*And My Body, Study of Self, MAY&JUNE

Sharing the photos from my recent sesh this week, included a lot of black and whites because I am always so torn <3 In our backyard, the stream is fully flowing. I connect with this place so much. Looking forward to getting a lot of film develo...

bts from today

spent the last few days shooting outside, the digitals i took I will share tomorrow :) Today I worked on the second half of my bnw soup double exposures, I am about half way through. I can’t wait to develop already haha. Wanted to share these iP...

yesterday

yesterday I took my first plunge into water for the first time in a while. (the Colorado river is freezing). I am glad I went, it did open my eyes to how much work I need to do with my body. I am not as strong as I was a few years ago, feeling lik...

red, full set ❤️

Imagining the woman I want to be. Trying to show up as her, for myself. I think things are going to smooth out, it feels like this summer will be fun. My mom is doing better, thankfully. started the other half of my double exposures, can’t wait ...

day to day

sprout hasn’t gotten in frame with me in a very long time ❤️ this is us on any given day. I look like a bum but I am so comfy. todays been a good day for us. We had a good brushing session, all of the people I drove today were nice and tippe...

October Sunset

Feeling inspired to do things with my experimental film, 2-4 were some images taken with a projector. Some of my original soaks, Ajax & diluted honey and some other goodies 💗 the last one is an image from that roll that I’m trying to prin...

Egyptian Jasmine🌸 full set

the incense burning, the mood ive been having. been loving the last few days, really have been good days. I am working on a design for canvas tote bags, stickers, etc. I really cant wait until I can try that out :) I've also been working on my pho...

where the moths hang, in color, full set ✨

the color versions of my latest self portraits. Most of my work is going to be here now, on my patreon. I have shared quite a bit here so far. In terms deeper than numbers. I would like to think that once I share and put something out there, it ca...

where the moths hang, full bw set✨

Study of self, may 2023, sharing from today in 2 different posts, these are the black and white versions. some days are easier than others and i feel like i live in these self portraits. today. 🖤 working on keeping in motion

lucky jeans

self portraits from a few years ago, in my old room. black and white I am using a lot lately and doing some wild things with it haha. thank you for being here 💗

friday night plans

Some favorites I wanted to share with all patrons tonight ❤️ yes, also from the triple exposure roll that is dear to my heart. I am thinking of printing the second one 🎞️

the first black orchid souped roll

🖤 this roll of ilford hp5 that i souped is also very special to me. I have made more rolls lately and I have some left. Excited to shoot one again. I now call the rolls black orchid✨ more personal photos ✨ that I am excited to share with yo...

home

these actually aren’t self portraits, but a roll i shot a few months ago. Half of the roll i didn’t shoot that well, but these i love. Just sharing my magical faerie place with you 💘

my heart felt like this today

Today was heavy, complete set 💓

nothing ever ends

Study of self, April 2023, uncensored including my heart ❤️

selected unseens

Self portraits, uncensored, from a soup I made with beer ❤️ wanted to share because I love how this roll came out 🎞️

March 2023

Cinestill film ✨ in my favorite room in our house, under a beautiful painting done by Francois Valdetaro ❤️

Study of self, part 2, on film

My composition wasn’t on point like I wanted, but the film from my recent self portraits uncensored on cinestill film 💓 I still am happy with them 🕯️

study of self, part 2, uncensored, full set, February 2023 digitals

summer 2022

have wanted to share these photos as they are, uncensored, they're really special to me, on my souped film :)

Study of self part 1

February 2023

socks only

some digitals of some favorite self portraits I’ve taken, uncensored ❤️ in black and white and color 💘