In the dark you look like a robot as you move your arm from the elbow repeatedly in the exact same motion to bring the unfurling flogger down between my legs. It's old, we should get rid of it. I feel like I'm watching a stabbing-robot from on...
My mother gave me a tiny emerald pendant when I was sixteen. It was beautiful, in the box, some things are like that. In the blue velvet-lined box it looked delicate and pretty, laid out in white gold and hanging from a very fine chain. I knew ins...
2021-11-05 16:27:22 +0000 UTC View PostTherapy is not my thing.
Twice I have tried it with two different people. The first one seemed more like a faith healer than a trained professional. The second one felt like she had a barrier around her. As hard as I tried, I could not connect...
Hello my dear patrons!
The holiday season is upon us. Lol. I'm sorry, I know it's not international holiday season, but it is Indian holiday season since I'm given to understand Diwali is the big one for us. That thing that happens every y...
I do know how it's done but on some level, I just do not understand where the line is between acceptance indulgence in a culture and its appropriation. Something that happened this week challenged me to think about it. Here are some thoughts. ...
2021-10-26 15:09:02 +0000 UTC View PostAs she drove down the highway her mind began to wander; it was such a long drive after all and the lights that littered the highway were beginning to meld amidst the mostly unchanged scenery. She thought back over their time together.
He was s...
The first time she introduced me to one of her *friends* I actually believed that was the extent of the relationship. Of course, at the time I was seven and understood not just friendship but much of the world in completely platonic terms.
He ...
We had been seeing each other for a few months when we decided to take a vacation together. Things between us were good. He was kind and attentive. And there was little conflict.
It was a departure from the kind of relationships I usually get ...
Dear S,
Honestly, I cannot believe I forgot your name. For days I have been searching the recesses of my brain and I cannot find it. I cannot find your name inside my mind. That seems so odd to me, darling, because I still remember, so wel...
I turned the stool so it was perpendicular to the bed, and I looked at my husband. I look better in candlelight, but his beauty is diminished by the darkness. I find that strange, especially since of the two of us, I'm the one who shines under a s...
2021-10-21 14:16:05 +0000 UTC View Post
Alarmingly, what I say is my point, is actually my point this time. In a personal account of recovering from PTSD and an anxiety disorder, I discuss what makes trauma, and what could heal it.
Please, if you are experiencing depression,...
2021-10-19 15:09:50 +0000 UTC View PostI remember telling my sister a few months after I first started working as an escort. She was visiting me, and I was taking her out to dinner. I told her in the cab. While I admitted it very casually, it was a moment of too much honesty...
2021-10-19 13:36:24 +0000 UTC View PostIt's been a mess. I've been a mess. The humiliation is unrelenting, and to think all of this began because I didn't shave my cunt.
For one day.
I've been shaving instead of waxing because all of my waxing equipment is lying packed ...
13 October 2021
There is something I have been trying to explain to him for a few weeks, and I worry that each time I try, I fall short of being able to articulate it the way I feel it in my heart. Perhaps part of the problem is that I can b...
2021-10-13 08:22:54 +0000 UTC View PostI cried like a child yesterday.
I have a hair trigger when it comes to my husband being mad at me. Last night he was "a little" mad. We both had very long days. He didn't sleep very well, and I didn't sleep very long. I had a deadline but ...
I fucked a strange man, who said a strange thing to me, and it made me think too much about sex and women hating women.
Enjoy!
2021-10-12 05:06:22 +0000 UTC View PostI want to buy a chastity belt. I am not exactly sure what the allure is to me, especially since I never touch myself anyway, because I truly believe (and this has nothing necessarily to do with d/s) that pleasuring myself is not my job. It was mea...
2021-10-10 14:27:52 +0000 UTC View PostDear A,
I expected better from you. Not for me, we both know there was already no hope for me when I showed up at your doorstep, but for everything and everyone that came after me, I expected better from you.
In all the years that ...
Dear P,
I truly believe I could have loved you. I truly believe you could have loved me as well. But how would have that ever worked when we cannot stand to see each other be human? Like right now, tell me you're thinking of anything other...
Dear M,
He was a pimp, and I was his whore, but you didn't know that did you? I bet you didn't expect to fuck a whore, while the man who owns the property watches.
You thought I was bringing you a cuckolded man, and I never led you...
Everyone around here has been talking masochism for a few days now, and I would be remiss not to step into the discussion. Like honestly, if this is not the moment for me to chime in, then I don't know if there even is a moment. I am not sure how ...
2021-10-05 09:00:15 +0000 UTC View Post
Hello!
I say constantly that I will do anything for entertainment and it may be the primary reason I do anything. It's why I date! This is why that's so incredibly satisfying to me.
I think.
2021-10-04 13:36:27 +0000 UTC View PostI am so attracted to his lack of mercy.
I think it will kill me.
That's something only he can give me, really. I am the criminal who stole a loaf of bread to feed my family, and he is the court that could release me, but wo...
2021-10-04 12:07:47 +0000 UTC View PostLast night I learnt how one could really break a person. It's been a week of endless cruelty, and that's okay, some weeks are like that. Whenever I say cruelty I think people understand something different than what I am really saying. I don't mea...
2021-09-30 10:47:42 +0000 UTC View PostIt's never a good sign when he fucks me before anything else. Well, when I say it's not a good sign, I mean it's ominous. It's like when we were children and our parents made sure we went to the bathroom and had a snack before we got in the car, i...
2021-09-28 12:59:12 +0000 UTC View PostI used to think corners were for errant girls who ran their mouths off a little too often. This doesn't feel like that. Whenever I saw a picture of someone in a corner, with their panties around their ankles, it gave me a warm, fuzzy feeling in my...
2021-09-27 13:45:34 +0000 UTC View PostNote: Welcome to my journal. It's an unfiltered collection of my thoughts and relationship. It's an erotic journal so it's mostly dirty. It's more loose and unstructured than most of my writing, and much more blatant, something of an ex...
2021-09-25 15:01:31 +0000 UTC View Post
"I'll tell you the first step of the road to exemplary," he whispers, turning my head so my ear is accessible to his lips, "When I suture your cunt shut tomorrow, I expect you to be wet. No, not expect. I demand it."
His breath is warm...
Hello!
I can talk about pain endlessly, and from every angle imaginable, but this discussion is not erotic. It's about certain genders and how their life experiences are defined by pain.
Enjoy!
2021-09-24 14:55:06 +0000 UTC View Post"Hurt me daddy," she whispered into my ear as I spread her legs. Her skirt was bunched around her waist and she was pushing her violet thong aside so I could plunge into her. I could hear the waves thrashing against the rocks on shore as clearly a...
2021-09-23 04:38:20 +0000 UTC View Post