words from september 19 2022
angel, witch, god, satan, elf, fairy, butterfly.
which story will you dive in today?
can we just become a stick?
a leaf?
a droplet of water.
can we become something that is still.
can we dwell ...
is every hurt or pain always a mis-communication?
is every suffering that is created in the world, from a lack of a full picture.
if we could see everyones full life,
be in their shoes,
we would see,
ahhh
this is how you came to ...
i’m letting go of it all.
what i have been telling myself for ages now.
let go, meredith.
let go.
if i let it go, i let it GROW.
imagine,
a world where we all were constantly letting go.
not white-knuckled around our des...
i keep changing my mind.
or i’m simply living,
and realizing,
i was wrong.
oops, i was wrong again.
when will it finally sink in,
that i know nothing?
the knowing,
is
the unknowi...
301222
I canceled my phone plan
and I moved into a house that doesn’t have wifi,
and I plan on keeping it that way.
Last night was my first night sleeping here.
it is 5:16AM
and for the first time in a long time,
I slept thr...
maybe we are the flowers.
maybe we are the ones who need to come alive
and bite
and strangle a little bit of life
to create new life.
maybe we need to strangle a little bit of our desires and addictions
and JUST GET RID OF the te...
i want me.
i love me.
i thought sleeping alone would be the hardest part of separating.
but instead it has been a way back to myself.
finger tip against finger tip.
breathing into the four pillows pressed a...
2022-12-18 08:27:48 +0000 UTC View Post
181222
1:20 am
awake for hours now.
my body hurts so bad.
i feel it feel it feel it.
i breathe breathe breathe.
i know i know i know.
i’ll raise the money to buy my house in cash by the end of february.<...
2022-12-18 06:37:34 +0000 UTC View Post
171222
i get it
i do
new laces
new shoes
new turtleneck
new treadmill
new day of desire
desire poured into the things you’re told to crave.
new sugar
new phone
new toys
ne...
2022-12-17 11:06:43 +0000 UTC View Post
161222 4:01am
everything i wish to do in the world, i wish to do for free.
because i want to,
because i love to.
i wish to create a free food co-op
a free bed and breakfast
a free retreat getaway place
to...
2022-12-16 09:26:24 +0000 UTC View Post
151222 4:20am
just fall into the current. why am i always swimming against it.
the life i dream of, he says, i have it.
i photograph, he says, so i know that if i look at something differently, it completely changes it...
2022-12-15 09:27:54 +0000 UTC View Post
141222 5:01 am
in the bath at moms.
completely defeated and depleted.
but i’ll regain; somehow.
i want the water as hot as it can be.
this doesn’t really make sense.
having yet another house to fix up and cl...
2022-12-14 14:05:26 +0000 UTC View Post
expired roll of film that i shot of juliet in malibu - someone else took the photos of the mysterious helicopter and windmills <3
her patreon is linked below 😍
is our technology making us feel less real? could technology be something that brings us closer to nature and not further away from it?
also the type of technology we keep pursuing, that we know is wrecking havoc. i think we have ...
2022-12-04 08:51:42 +0000 UTC View Post
there is a way to evolve and not cause harm.
there is a way to move through nature causing as little harm as possible and still going light years faster in growth with technology.
a first idea is a first idea. a f...
2022-11-30 09:02:48 +0000 UTC View Post
September 26 2022
you know how many times I change my mind?
a-fucking-lot.
every day.
and how can we not?
every single day is a brand new day,
every single day brings brand new thoughts,
ideas,
conversations,
i...
fall into it.
into all of it.
into the oceans
and the rivers
and the tears
and the pain
and the kisses
and caresses
and every good thing.
it is all good.
it is all for you.
it is al...
2022-11-26 09:26:09 +0000 UTC View Post
yes
mutual compassion.
no two people will ever have the same conversation, the same understanding.
no two people will ever feel the same way,
think the same way.
it’s all just about that.
being ourselves,
<... 2022-11-25 23:48:16 +0000 UTC View Post
November 22 2022
putting nalcoah to sleep tonight she asked me “when will we wake up?”
and I said, “when it is light out, when the sun comes up.”
she said “why when the sun comes up?”
I said “that’s how she wak...
not that it was the wrong decison, but maybe it wasn't THE decision.
Maybe not the thing to be acted on, or maybe not carried on...?
I'm learning...
I'm changing a lot that is going on here.
It may seem and feel and even be a little chaotic at first.
I want you to all know, you are welcome to send me constructive criticism.
I need all the help I can get, from anyone, from anywhere.
September 26 2022
life often feels too overwhelming.
whether it be overwhelming pain,
or overwhelming love and beauty.
lately it’s been overwhelming interest
and curiosity.
every
single
conversation.
every
