Firstly thank you very much for all your messages! I'm feeling much much better today! So I'm just going to get these out of the way first before I start working on the animation!, because this makes for a good set anyway!
So unlike now a days where taking a picture is as simple as getting your phone out and is possible the most common past time activity - There was a time when it wasn't so simple and I totally had no idea what i was doing.

Everybody knows the first time you decided to take a erotic picture or video of yourself it comes out terrible! The angle is wrong, the lighting is wrong, you look really small , or the money shot was just lame!

I'd remembered the first time I did it. This was probably way back in 2000, I'd finally bought my first PC and it came with a Webcam which just about took images at a 640x480 resolution lol. It was actually the first digital image capturing device I'd ever had. Digital cameras were only just becoming a thing and most people still had to take pictures with film and get it developed. Phones with camera would not exists for many years yet.

So naturally curious I'd use the webcam for that purpose! I'd always seen adult material aty that point so i was not stranger to it all. I'd try to flex but back then i had no muscle. I'd try to get into sexy poses and I just looked like an idiot. The results were just absolutely terrible! LOL like embarrassingly bad! I actually had to delete it all immediately! And just accept I would never look like the guys I admired.

But really was it all that terrible? On hindsight now I believe that a lot of it probably had something to do with our mental images of ourtselves. We are so conditioned to seeing those really airbrushed/photoshopped and edited videos on sites around the internet and all around us on media, we've forgotten that people simply don't look like that.

As I've grown older I've learnt to appreciate that if you try not to compare yourself against the superficiality of adult actors and models, then you actually start to see and appreciate yourself more.

And as you gain more confidence in yourself you actually start to relax and in essence become more naturally sexy. Even my 50/50 images are subject to a lot of planning and correction/adjustments.

So next time you take a picture or video of yourself, don't judge it too harshly. Look at it and try to pick out the good points about yourself. Everybody is beautiful and sexy - you just got to discover it yourself.
So this set of illustrations has actually already been chopped up and is ready to be animated! Which I will start tomorrow! I'm expecting some real good results because if this works well I can deliver some even more exciting works to you in the very near future!
More to come real soon! I'm so excited now!
- Monkeygogo